kinda think of it, i don't even know when I update my blogs... sorry guys, for being such a drag. however I do appreciate and want to thank those who occasionally still come into my 'grave-site' and read whatever I've wrote...

anyway, yet i shall once again tell another tale on wai's life... *yawnz*

for the past month or so, so many things have happened - from my first day of work, till this very moment. yes, I've been so busy with the world till I don't even have time for myself. my daily times when I can sit back and relax is from 12am - 1am. yes only an hour... the rest, work, family business, and seeing the youth looking forward something each month - the revival of the youth service. I really wanna thank God for today especially... why so is because - tomorrow, my family restaurant is taking a day off! and yes! each day, its from the time I wake up > going to shop > home ( by the time I reach home it'll be around 11 sometimes 12:30am) I'm totally exausted however, these past few weeks have been very... educational. I learn much about business management, finance and of course - food! in work, internal politics and different levels hierarchys of the company, etc which I'm loving it to bits! however this isn't the reason why I'm updating my blog... I usually do it when I feel like it. hmm ... anyway if you've been reading my past few archives... and I must say most of em are mainly about relationship yea... but I have a little confession to tell, around 75% are pure "crap" just figments of my own imagination - why so is beucase i was thiknig to myself one day and I though - hey, ppl online are so gullible... so i decided to do a test... thus using daily events and mixing a little bit of fiction and romance and ta-da. Wai Wai's world. hehe but I'm pass that right now. lets change the topic shall we?

"how do you know when you're in love?"

perhaps that is too broad - lets re-phrase it

"how do you know that you really like that person? is it because you're seeking for companionship? or rebound - dare i say? or perhaps the comfort of being together with someone?"

hmm, well to be honest, I think I'm having a crush on someone. then again, the journey of having to love and to be loved in return is indeed a dangerous and jeopardous path. but I remember saying this once as it was used in my msn nick for a short time that ... to love is to risk is to sacrifice is to love. hmmm well I think I've though enough for the day. the decision i would say now is that I really want this to be in God's hands. I've made wrong choices before and ... i don't want it to happen again. well, i guess this is the reason why I'm writing this... oh well so there goes, another episiode in the wonderful life of Wai Wai.

ps - what you've read ain't bullshit haha, so ... yea, goodnight world... God bless

Wai Wai and Life part 2.563

This is the entry of Wai...

Dear Blog,

its been a while, yes too long for that matter that I've been telling the world about my life, ah yes life goes on...

September 29th 2004 - 11:56pm on a wonderful wednesday night. Location Sunway in one of those apartments near SJMC.

it is tonight that attended yet another meeting with my new found friends at City Church, it has been a while since I've been back home and it was good... refreshing, yes. We shared our experiences, exhanged thoughts and made stupid joke *sigh* but it was all good. While Jai, our group leader, was sharing his experiences, my mind started to reminise. 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1 - 0 - ... off into the deep blue yonder....

Whoa, long not overdue… well I am truly sorry for not being consistent with my life. Much as been going on and once again, I have yet another though or perhaps I would say an incident I would like the share with you. So sit back, kick off your shoes and relax as I bring you yet into another episode of wai wai’s life. Feel free to sleep if you’re bored, I’m prone to be extremely ‘cheong-hey’

“My heart skipped a beat when she walked pass me. I turn my head just towards her, captivated and mesmerized by her character and as she turned, she smiled back at me.”

I finally did it, my first ever trip to a foreign country alone – New Zealand. Though it’s been about 3 weeks since the trip, I kept thinking about it. Perhaps, due to the unforgettable experiences we’ve had together. Things become so much more beautiful when you reminisce – don’t you think? Well… I honestly don’t know where to start because the entire journey from the time we purchased our ticket to the day we arrive back here in Melbourne was blessed.

It was along the streets of Melbourne that I first met her. It was rather a cold night since it has been raining since the break of dawn. If I recall, it was past 6, the beginning of twilight. My friend yelled across the road and a fuzzy figure ran across the street (sorry, I forgot my specs) towards his car. I was at the back seat thinking to myself, who could this be? Knowing that it was a 2-door car, my friend jumped off the front passenger seat and pulls the lever. The seat slides forward.

My friend (the driver) turned to me and said ‘Wai, this is my friend, Michelle…and Michelle, my friend Wai’ while turning his head back to the wheel. Though it was a brief introduction, we shook hands to greet each other but I wasn’t able to see her due to the lighting in the car. Arghhh, how I wish things would just light up so I can see her! Anyway…

We were on our way to the cinemas, yes the four of us. We spoke a little and each time we passed streetlights I’d try to get a better look at her. Don’t get me wrong cause I just didn’t wanted to speak to a person whom I can really see or … probably I was shy… Oh my goodness, what’s happening to me?

She was friendly and I’d say an extrovert. Funny, yes she was too. There’s just so much life in her. Still I couldn’t really see her face… well, we finally made it – Crown Casino. It was as if my wish came true! Hey, it did! Crown was full of lights, everywhere you go, you see lights shining, glittering, flashing and so and so. This for the first time, I saw her. My heart skipped a beat when she walked pass me. I turn my head just towards her, captivated and mesmerized by her character and as she turned, she smiled back at me. It was as if time slowed down… just for that moment…
Hmmm, sometimes I wonder, is this how one gets attracted to the other? The start of something that would escalate to something else? Well folks, I guess that’s it for now… I shall continue my thoughts… in times to come, till then take care of yourselves, God bless…

the story continues...

… it was her 1st hug… I was quite surprised myself when I saw her arms open wide for me. All I could see then was her smile, and her eyes… it took only a couple of seconds but at that moment everything seemed to have slowed down. She blinked her eyes, and it was as if she has seen right through me, the good the bad the ugly, all exposed in just a mere split second. God, it was nice. When suddenly…

“All right, now give another 15 people hi-fi’s and bring them out for supper!” thus concluded this evenings youth service at church. Still, I had to admit it was nice…

~A Story to Tell~…
"There was this girl, she barged right into my room and introduced herself. Obviously I wasn’t prepared for it. My room was utterly in A mess but she didn’t cared. Though it was only our first meet, it felt like I’ve known her somewhere before. After a quick introduction, she pulled out a camera from her pink pea shaped bag and requested to take a photo in my room. Picture this; clothes littered all over, a half-eaten sponge cake and of course, me in my shorts. Why is something I do not know until this day.

We strolled along the river on our way to a place where we were about to meet some other friends. Thoughts were shared, and experience – exchanged. I met her other friends when we arrived at the location and we had a good chat. As time passed we decided to head home. We decided not to take the public transport because, maybe, to me walking would spawn chances for me getting to know her better. For her she just wanted to take pictures. Funny, she always wanted me to be in it with her. Curious.

We passed by a local 24-hour convenient store where her friends wanted to grab some food for the late night they were going to have. I wanted to ‘spend’ more time with her but something told me to head on home. Then, she looked at me and said in a very soft tone ‘going so soon?’ her eyes rolled at me and I turned my head and at that moment, I had a choice, go home or walk into the store.

The next thing I knew, I was already 10 feet away from the convenient store. I didn’t want to turn my head around because I don’t want to regret what I’ve just done. As I mapped out the path to my place, I heard the solemn sound from the alto saxophone played by a 6.7’ high white male. Twas then I though, hey, why not? Since I’ve never done it before. For the first time ever I tossed a gold coin into his saxophone case. He winked at me as I passed by and then I though to myself, ‘is today a good day?’ - I think it is."

Post thought – who knows, what’ll happen in future is something that is beyond our grasp but only in the hands of our Lord God almighty. Set your eyes on Him for He cares so much for you. It is better to let future set its own course than to expect of what you might get. I’d really want Him to surprise me :)

Thought of the Day: simple things in life

Good morning good morning good morning. Its 15 pass 9 on a … moody Monday morning but the air is good and life in the city has become busy again. This is actually my third ‘morning’ days and I feel really refreshed. Things seemed different. I guess a change would do you good eh? As what they say and remembering a song by Sheryl Crow – change would do you good.

I actually had quite a tiring night last night. Well mood level was below average and why? I guess I forgot to take my daily dosage of caffeine and … yah.

“That’s why they call it Father’s day…”

This morning, when I woke up (8am) I remembered my dad; he called me last night just to see how I was doing? I told him that it’s the last week of my research and we chatted. Funny how my dad makes jokes at me, it brings back so many memories when I was back home in Malaysia. One incident occurred to me and to me what was said was admirable. We were having our seasonal mamak session and it was only the guys, yes me my brothers and my dad. There was a moment of silence, good silence, just enjoying each other’s presence I guess. Then he said out these words, “for me… I enjoy it, I enjoy simple things in life like this.” It was nothing formal just us few blokes on a few plastic chairs with a couple of drinks and a tandori chicken. What was going on in my head was “what in the world made him say that?” then I though that perhaps it was our visit to one of my dad’s ex-partner in his company whom he invite our family to lunch at his luxurious home at… somewhere far. It was some Hungarian lunch we had and I couldn’t believe that they actually imported salami, ham and other kinds of food from Hungry, so that they’d have a ‘real’ Hungarian lunch. Bizzaro. Everything was so posh and we had a good time, I was begging my dad to leave cause I was ultimately bored to death from adult talks in business and economics and staring at most of the collected Schwarzkopf crystal collections? … Yeah beautiful… but… yeah… boring.

Once in a while my dad would also bring our family to places where things are above advant-grade to enjoy life. I also cherished the times when we traveled to most parts of Europe and other parts of the world… but NON of them could actually be compared to the time I get to sit down with my dad at a old wooden-shack next to the drain in our ‘home’ clothes and having our lifestyle so down to earth. At this point, the words ‘so many things in life can’t be bought by money’ became true to me.

This just in, a close friend of mine just wrote to me:
“…Somehow there's this image in my mind that captures the entire concept of ‘home’: imagine KL skyline in the evening, when the sky is dark orange-red, and the sun is just barely visible, you can just hear traffic honking in the rush-hour traffic, the smell of exhaust fumes, the smell of your car's interior and that air-con smell, Hitz FM playing in the stereo, driving back on the Federal Highway.. passing by packed school buses and school kids running around the school compound, parents rushing their kids to tuition, office workers ta-pauing their dinner back home, trying not to spill it in the car, my god... it just hit me you know.. And I was like, totally nostalgic for a few hours.”
After reading his mail it kinda dawned onto me that what he mentioned are some of the many simple things in life often forgotten. After reading his mail, I reminisced how we use to hang out at the 7/11 and had our ‘ramli’ burgers. He’d buy a slurpy and I’ll usually get my beer (root beer :p). Its times like these that I think back and thank God for all the memories that He’s given me.

“Penny for a though?”

To tell you frankly today is quite a day for me though its only 3:37pm. (Note: I didn’t spend the entire time writing this ya, was on and off J) So many thoughts just keep flowing through my head, and I shouldn’t be so engross in blogging this down when I should be writing on my research. Sigh. If only my research thesis would be like this. Just mindlessly writing the on-goings in my head…. (part 2 – to be continued…...)

You know, I've always though that I was a strong person in relationships... but after tonite, I realize that there are so many other people out there that is so much stronger than me. the word "wai-tai" meaning courageous in canto would be the word used here. But what does it mean in this context? I had a freind that went though hell and back and told me about his experience with this girl. He was a strong man and I mean STRONG but the only strength that could be found in him that time was another shoulder from a friend. With these words he (the friend)said (of course in canto) "lei loh tak hei, yu fong tak dai" meaning - if you can carry it, you must know how to put it down (let it go).

those words never left my head.

the true extend and the meaning of "letting it go" hit me again today. 3 simple words yet so so complex. in it means all -

to love is to risk is to sacrifice is to love.
All bound by time and what lies beyond.
God knows what but if we trust in Him both hope and faith,
we'll be strong, yes we'll be strong.
Let time take its sporadic course,
As we cherish all that we have right now,
never to forget what lies within ourselves
in each heart the simple things in life
is to love is to risk is to sacrifice is to love.
-to be continued...
(i think i'm missing another 3 stanzas but right now my brain engine just....)


I don't know if what I wrote above made any sense - probably not cos its been wayyyyyyy too long (eons)since I've composed poems... or whatever you call it haha. ok, frankly I told myself to sleep by 1:30am but apparently it seems to be 2:28am now... body feels soooo lethagic. ok I shall retire to my bed once I'm done with this. Still what happened ealier on reminded me of the past mistakes I've gone though in my relationship life. In a way, I felt... free... perhaps this is what it means by "getting on with life" eh? la dee dum... ba dab beee boda dada.... prapapa..... goodnight world, farewell and adieu...

Well well, ain't it the life. 7 more days till dateline and here I am blogging. woke up - surprisingly at 6:30am this morning and go my brain engine working! amazing. it has never happened before, got a nice cup of white choc mocha from starbucks, 2 sausage egg Mcmuffin, headed straight home and started work once again yeeehawwwww. switched on my comp and tuned to yahooLaunch! and word doc and boombadabing... music and work. how soothing. I just can't wait till i hand in my research! this is my final lap that's why i have to "pok-meang" (which utterly mean extend life (word for word);in this case - kill yourself to...!) and "kan-lik" (hardworking). gotta push this last push to the ends of the earth and no looking back! once this is all done! I'll jump off the edge and soar freely like an eagle. *wake-up wai* sh*t!!!! still got more to do... have to stop dreaming... *grumble* thats my stomach... I even forgot to eat lunch. @_@ oh well aint it the life...*blink*blink* aint it the life... laaa deee dummmm